inikah kawan??

skrg nie...ak mmg dibelenggu masalah..satu demi satu menimpa ak..
ptptn ak mintak naek kadar..xdpt..lpas utk yuran..pas2 balance tngl
rm30..mcm mane ak nk upgrade pc ak..mcm mane ak nk mule wat psm ak..
mak ayh ak akn bg rm200-rm300sebuln..itupn kalo bagi..
masalah per1 ak..ak hilangkn jam kesygan mak ak..dimana jam itu mak
ak bli utk rewards pd dirinya sendiri sempena bday dy yg dianggap sbg
nyawanya sendiri..ttpi ak hilngkn secara x sngaje..n ak lupe ak ltak
mane..ak xtau kalo ade sape trnmpak..@ sape trambil @ sape sgaje ambil
..waAllahualam..harga jam tue..rm500++.. dan smpi skrg mak ak msih
ungkit..dy cite dgn sume..dy maki ak..dy mara ak..smpi hilng tros
pecaye dh..kalo ada sesiapa yg mngambilnye..tlgla pulg..kalo x..Tuhan
tue maha adil..smua prbuatan jahat dibalas dgn jahat..sbb ilang atau
dicuri begini ak menderita..@ mungkin kesilapan ak sndri..xpe..ak akn
berusaha kumpul duit..blikn mak ak jam tue blik..baek!!..stakat nie ak
bru kumpul rm100..kumpul lg..chaiyok!!

masalah kedua ak..utang ak dgn poksu ak..yg ak pinjm utk memuaskn ati
kwn ak..yg dy terpaksa gne duit dy mggantikn pfume yg ak xjual..inilah
lumrah biznes..ada untg ada rugi..n ak dh bg duit..tp dr raya aidilfitri
n smpi skrg..habuk pn ak xdpt..ak nk report pd sape?? polis?? ak kne tipu
ke?? ntahla..ak xdpt nk bwt pape..ak buntu..insyaAllah ak akn kumpul lg
rm160 utk ganti blik duit poksu ak..ak xtau nk tlg sape @ tlg je dri ak
sndri..yg berenang pn msih lemas lg..

kwn ak pnah ckp..kwn segala2nya bg dy..dan dy hargai sebuah persahabatan
..tp skrg ape yg blaku..dy mjauh dr ak..ak syg dy sgt3..tp dy lunturkan..
kepercayaan ak pd dy..dy meletakkn ak dlm kesusahan..sedikit pn tidak
memikirkan situasi ak..dy meletakkn kegembiraannya dahulu dgn tidak
memikirkan kesusahan org lain..bagaimana org lain bersush deminya..risau
tntg dirinye, pelajarannye, tp sedikitpn dy xnk cube bngkit & x appreciate
dgn ape yg org buat utk dy..ak kecewa sgt2..skrg nie ak rse down gler..
xkn ada sape yg leh bntu ak kecuali diri ak sndri..kdg2 ak pk..dy hnye nk
gnekn ak je ke..mungkin ini dugaan Tuhan nk bg kt ak..dan ak hrap diatas
ape yg blaku nie..ada hikmah disebaliknye..ak berdoa Tuhan tolong kuatkn
hati hambaMu ini..kurniakn ak sifat sabar..dan ak cube berusaha stakat yg
termampu..ak perlu bertahan utk 1 semester...1 thun je lg..kemudian semua
ini akn berakhir..sume ini akn "over" dan tinggal hanya mimpi buruk yg ak
kne cube utk tdk mngulanginye lg..YaAllah..kuatkn hati hambamu ini..&
cekalkn hatinye serta kurniakannya sifat sabar..Amin..

senyap??

10/12/08
arini ak jmpe se2org...ak mmg angap dy mcm kwn...coz...walo sebelom nie ak pnh ske dy....
dy cube bermanja dgn ak blik mcm dlu...tp hati ak x pd dy...hati ak pd bf ak....
yg dh menyepi utk 3 ari....ak majok dgn dy....tp dy skit pn x pduli psal ak....
skit pn dy x ksh psal ak....ak sdih sgt3....sgt3....ak xtau pe yg jadi pd dy....
ak dh cube msg....tp dy x respon pape pn....ntahla ak xtau nk wat pe lg....kdg2.....
bile ko dh bg sepenuhnye hati ko kt se2org....dy pulak yg menyakiti kite...kdg2 ak terpikir
skali lg ke ak bg ati ak nie pd org yg salah....ak sdih...teramat2 sedih....
ak sgt3 kecewa....dy xda cube utk dptkn ak blik....walopn dy cbe utk minta maaf dr ak..
tp ak dpt rasekn yg maaf dy tue x ikhlas...dy xda ckp pn...."syg...maafkn i...baby plz,
didnt mean to hurt u...u'll always be my special one...i pmise....later i'll chnge 4 u"
no...dy x ckp cmtue...dy cume ckp...i minta maaf...sori for hurtin u...dats all....
did he really love me...im so sad...he didnt try to get me bck...ak sgt sdih....
rsenye ak gagal lg...rsenye ak ditinggalkn lg...ak dgn dy bru je 15 ari...guz ak rse...
ak tersalah pilih org lg....thnx again for evrytin....thanx again for ruining my life..
wat do i do again to get rid of him....for almost 1 semester....sakit la...kdg2 ak terpikir
ak nie gf dy ke...ak mmg kuat cemburu...tp cra dy lyn ak...kdg2 ak xrse ak nie special bg
dy...kdg2 ak rse mcm dy buat2 je...dy x hormat prioriti ak sbg gf dy...ak kecewa sgt2...xmcm org laen...x mcm org cpl...ntah...
ak kne cube lupekn dy...ak sdih...tp ak xtau nk ckp dgn sape...dhla sazana...
ko kuatkn je la dri ko...cbe lupekn dy...

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