haih...sbr je la sazana...

ak xphm npe lelaki sgt3 ego...
sush btol la nk cri org yg ssuai...
yg leh thn dgn kerenah ak nie...huhu...
ak nie jnis cpat melenting...
n ak nk sum1 yg leh mngalah dgn ak...
tp nie laen...sgt3 laen...dy xkn mengalah...
n dy tros akn snyap...
ok..
if ini dy nk...
ok...go on...ak akn snyap...n xkn muncul lg...
n xkn gngu lg idop dy...

endless pain

today...i noe many kind of stori...which sort...
i cud learn from it...i said diz precious word...
but it seems no valued - "when i need sum1 so much,
he didnt came for me, but sum1 else did"...
but no respon...no feelings....guz me...hav to bck
off...no point...its worthless...juz keep it within
me...again n again...life..life...life...y must we
get through it...evry1 around me...stil life in da
past...y?? y??...n da past...hurts me a lot...a lot
..more than i cud imagine...mama...mama...mama...
im in pain...it was so hurt...i really need u mama
..no..no one..nobody came..no...its juz me again..
n again...n again...God..give me strength..to get
through diz...really big strength..to fight....
EVERYTIN...EVERYTIN...EVERYTIN...ALONE...N BY MYSELF

really damn hurt

ari nie...ak mmg btol2 xda mud...kwn yg slalo rpt dgn ak sblom nie...
yg btol2 rpt...bsame stiap mse....dh jauhkn dri dr ak...n ak sndri
xtau sebabnye...ak syg dy sgt3...ak sngup bwt ape je utk dy...tp dy
sikit pn x pnh pk...ape yg ak rase...dy bwt ak nie....mcm x wujud
lgsg bg dia....ati ak skit sgt3....ak nk nanges....tp ak thn...ak
sbr lg...ape ak nie hina sgt ke...smpi dy bwt ak cmnie...xpnh ke
skali...skali je...dy pk ape yg ak rase...ak sdih sgt3...kdg2 ak rase
mcm ak xnk duk kt umh nie lg....sakit sgt3....mnghadapi org yg lgsg
mke kite pn dy xnk hadap...mcm hina sgt ak dbwtnye...ak sbr je...
ak sngup berkorban ape je utk dy....tp dy sdikit pn x pnh appreciate
ape yg ak bwt...YaAllah...ini dugaan mu ke yaAllah....sdihla...
ak mmg sntiasa perlukn kwn2 disisi....sbb...kwn2 je yg dpt bwt ak ketawa...
gembira...

pe nk jd nie!!!!!

kbelakangn nie....huih...ak pn xtau pe jd dgn ak...
ak bwt pe je ak ske...smpi ak x pk lgsg kesannye...
ak pn rase skrg nie...ak bukn dri ak yg sblom nie...
ntah ape jd kt ak ntah....ak bwt bnde yg xpnah ak bwat
sblom nie...n i keep doin dat...hey!! wat s wrong wit
me....?? or am i sick wit my life?? or was it a chnge??
or a impact of wat hapen towards me?? huh...i cnt evn
define myself...really damn complicated...
after wat hapen to me....many guys enter my life...
but i dunno which one...dat i really need...
n really sincere towards me...sumtimes...
i need dat sum1 so much...but he doesnt seems to appear
but sum1 else came...dat makes me really cnfuse...
i noe i hav to make a clear decision here...but to me..
for now...im not thinking of any series relationship
rite now...coz im really sick n afraid of it...
today wat i saw?? i saw...my fren...who r really
close to me...doin sumtin she not suppose to do bcoz
of stupid guy...owh God...im afraid...if 1 day...im in
a rlationshp...then this things hapen to me again...
i dunno whether i cud cope wit it or not...ohh God...
so bttr i listen to my father advice...not to in
rlationshp...til i suppose to...
then...im juz trying my best to fight it...being myself..
find myself...and really understnd myself...
~~~~~~~~~~move on sazana~~~~~~~~~~~~

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Pedigree - Geneology

nape slalo sgt...

hari nie...ak mbace ssuatu yg x sptutnye ak bce...n x spatutnye ak amek tau...coz tiada kaitan pn ant. ak dn dia...
hati ak rase sebak sgt...teramat sgt...ak bpura2 gembira dn menampakkn sprti tiada ape yg blaku...
nape sush sgt kte nk disygi oleh org yg kte syg...
sush kn...sush...yg dpt tue...hargai lah...
npe kdg2 kte dh setia...kte dh jujur...tp npe dy enggan berbuat yg same...
ak slalo kne mcm nie...n ak dh tkut nk bhrap lg...
walo ak cube jauh...tp x bleh...kdg2 ak yg x bleh...kdg2 ak dcari semula dn ak xdpt nk elak...
ak slalo trtnye2..mcm mne kte nk tau...se2org itu jujur pd kite..
ikhlas dgn kite...syg kte...x tipu kte...x permainkn kite...
bagaimana ek?
kali nie...ak terkene lg...haih...kkdg mmg ak ckp ak dh x sngup nk hadapi semua nie...tp ak kalah...ak ttp menerima ia dtg n ak ttp mencari...nape ek...
x ke ak rase yg ak sgt kejam terhdp dri ak sndri...
ntahla...ak dh xtau nk wat cmner lg dh...
ak buntu...ak sndri x phm dri ak...
nape sume bnde nie blaku kt ak...
tlgla Tuhan...hentikn sume nie...hentikn permainan nie sumenye...
tonjolkn yg benar...dan jalan yg sptutnye ak ambil Ya Allah...
aku hanya manusia yg lemah...

dedicated diz song...to sum1...

I woke up kinda early today
And something told me from that moment
It wouldn't be the same
It felt like you were hiding something
But I didn't push it
I didn't complain or say nothin
I tried to act like I didn't see it
Cause deep down I knew I didn't want to believe it

But there it was, it was you and her
You left your sidekick on the nightstand
And I read

Everything you did, and everything you said and
And now I'm standing here looking like damn..
I thought it was you and I
Now all I got to say is why?

After all of these times that we've tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn